I wonder.
If I'm forcing my mind to feel opposite. What I really want as less want and what I don't really want as something I really want.
Every night since I made this decision a while ago, this one thing keeps distracting my mind.
I made too many comfortable spaces here.
I loved too many people here.
I built too many relationships and bonds here.
I found what I really couldn't find before here.
I found the peace of mind here.
Though the presence of "me" may not a big deal for them, now that every single precious matter hits me as the strongest pain.
Whenever I spend my time with someone I love, I don't want them to forget me even after I leave him or her.
I know I have to stand strong, but not sure if I can pursue my goal without regretting this decision.
But that's why I want to cherish every single moment I spend in this dream. Short yet sweet dream.
A little bit more, let me stay in this fleeting happiness.